By this time, the nauseousness had subsided but my daughter's appetite had not recovered, and some more IV lines were attached to the pump. Her pain still persisted. In fact, the most memorable moment of Christmas would be the experience of witnessing my daughter, usually stoic in the face of pain, writhing in agony for 3 hours after midnight in the dark hospital bed. The morphine had not helped. Tears streamed down her cheeks, legs kicked about, her body contorted as she repeated the words, "it hurts... it hurts... owe-ee! owe-ee!" And I will never forget the feeling of utter helplessness as my eyes met hers, her gaze desperately begging me to take the pain away. Without hesitation I would have, but all I could do was hold her hand and cry with her. Yet at the height of her misery she would plead, "daddy, pray for me!" She would be the one reminding me of the One who was journeying with us... and whose presence we were to be celebrating on Christmas day.
Wednesday, December 31, 2014
the hospital stay: part 3
By this time, the nauseousness had subsided but my daughter's appetite had not recovered, and some more IV lines were attached to the pump. Her pain still persisted. In fact, the most memorable moment of Christmas would be the experience of witnessing my daughter, usually stoic in the face of pain, writhing in agony for 3 hours after midnight in the dark hospital bed. The morphine had not helped. Tears streamed down her cheeks, legs kicked about, her body contorted as she repeated the words, "it hurts... it hurts... owe-ee! owe-ee!" And I will never forget the feeling of utter helplessness as my eyes met hers, her gaze desperately begging me to take the pain away. Without hesitation I would have, but all I could do was hold her hand and cry with her. Yet at the height of her misery she would plead, "daddy, pray for me!" She would be the one reminding me of the One who was journeying with us... and whose presence we were to be celebrating on Christmas day.
the hospital stay: part 2
Tuesday, December 30, 2014
the hospital stay: part 1
What began as (what I thought would be) a 2 or 3 hour visit
to the hospital’s emergency care department for my daughter’s intense stomach
pain ended up being an 11 day ordeal for us… a case of appendicitis that had
deteriorated into a ruptured appendix. We are relieved that she was finally discharged
from the hospital this morning, and is now sleeping in her own bed with no IV
lines and beeping equipment, no medication, and no pain.
The hospital allowed a parent to stay with their child, and
I ended up sleeping on a cot beside my daughter for nine nights (my wife took mainly
the day shifts with my son). I sketched my daughter regularly, as a way to fill
the hours, deal with my own anxiety, attempt to connect with my somewhat stoic daughter in some fashion, and (I think, in hindsight) pray for
healing and offer thanks… I ended up with over 60 drawings of her, in addition
to other miscellaneous scenes from the hospital.
Despite the circumstances of a child in agony, Christmas (and
most of the holidays) spent in a hospital room, lack of sleep, and general
stresses placed upon us, as parents we have come out of the situation with a
deep sense of gratitude… for my daughter’s bravery, resilience, and the chance to witness her strength
of character in a new light; for the nursing care and medical attention we received;
for the wonderful, warm support lavished upon us by friends, family, and
community of faith; for the many anonymous donors and volunteers that helped
put a smile on our children’s faces through their philanthropic work; for the
opportunity for our family to be united in prayer and slow down at a busy time;
for
the memory of a unique Christmas to be remembered by us for decades to come; and the opportunity given to me by my daughter to share with her so intimately this journey of pain and healing. Rather than missing out on something this Christmas, we were enriched in ways not possible in any other way.
the memory of a unique Christmas to be remembered by us for decades to come; and the opportunity given to me by my daughter to share with her so intimately this journey of pain and healing. Rather than missing out on something this Christmas, we were enriched in ways not possible in any other way.
Friday, December 26, 2014
son
Twelve views of my son, watching videos... these were drawn over 2 nights just over a week ago, each not entirely capturing his full resemblance. A series of sketches of my daughter would follow immediately after under rather unexpected circumstances... to be posted soon!
Friday, December 12, 2014
Sunday, December 7, 2014
a short trip to Lethbridge
Lethbridge in the morning... from a hotel room |
Sunday, November 30, 2014
Tuesday, November 25, 2014
the box
My son sets up a sleeping spot inside the huge box our new IKEA sofa came in, and insists he sleep in it for the night. There's something profound about this desire, or instinct -- the beginning of architecture! It also reminds me of The Boxtrolls, which we all watched a few weeks ago...
Sunday, November 23, 2014
River of Ice, day 2
The sky cleared up and it was a glorious winter morning... another visit to yesterday's discovery, where slabs of ice have naturally piled on top of one another along the banks of the North Saskatchewan River. It was a much colder day, but I decided to make a point of applying washes on site, only to see my paintbrush (and paint) freeze during the process.
Saturday, November 22, 2014
River of Ice
Sunday, November 9, 2014
winter at last...
Tuesday, November 4, 2014
Sunday, November 2, 2014
new coloured markers
Some sketches using a set of 16 Paper Mate coloured markers bought at Staples last week. It will take some time settling into some comfortable colour combinations and strategies... having to change pens constantly disrupts the general flow of the drawing process I find, and my daughter has turned into the Hulk.
Saturday, October 25, 2014
FIFA match at Commonwealth Stadium
Monday, October 20, 2014
withered sunflowers
Sunday, October 19, 2014
River Valley cycling
Another morning cycling around the River Valley... a sketch from the footbridge across the North Saskatchewan River facing north towards the CN Rail and Yellowhead bridges. The warm autumn season continues...
Monday, October 13, 2014
Astotin Lake, Elk Island National Park
Sketches from a short trip to Elk Island National Park on Thanksgiving Day; another beautiful autumn day with some golden yellow still remaining. I have only visited in the winter when Astotin Lake, shown here, was solid ice, so it was a wonderful opportunity to experience the landscape (and a few herds of bison) in a completely different light. We are so fortunate to have this park so close by.
Monday, September 29, 2014
12 inch bike
A new 12 inch bicycle, which we are using to wean our daughter off training wheels, and which will be handed down soon thereafter to her little brother so he can graduate from his tricycle.
Friday, September 26, 2014
Sunday, September 21, 2014
tomatoes from a garden
autumn in the river valley
Edmonton boasts the highest amount of park land per capita among Canadian cities, due in large part to its river valley which becomes its most spectacular during the short autumn season. There are layers and layers of bright greens, reds, oranges, and yellows under a soft but clear blue sky at this time of year, and sketches on little Moleskine sketchbooks can never do it justice. I've especially come to appreciate this magnificent urban asset since beginning to cycle again.
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